Being fully present – do I have to?

Published by Raevyn under My thoughts on that... on September 25, 2009

Excerpt from: Daily OM

The more we draw ourselves into the present moment, the more we honor the gift of our lives, and the more we honor the people around us. When we are fully present, we give and receive aliveness in equal measure. For today, try to be fully present in your daily activities and watch a new reality open for you.

When someone says to be fully present in the moment, I say “where else is there?”. I thought I was present and accounted for each day, but now that I look at how I spend my days, I see that I am always somewhere else. I understand that being present is something I have struggled with my entire life. Due to things that happened in my past, I didn’t spend a lot of time in my body and my physical awareness was close to nil. Every day I would end up with new bruises because I would bump into things. How can I be honest with myself and say that I am present if I am not even able to keep myself from walking into tables and walls.

I have heard many different ways to bring myself to present awareness, but most take so much energy that I don’t keep up with them. Even as I write this, I am thinking a million other things and finding myself drifting to something else. I am sure some people would diagnose me as ADD, however it is more than a focus problem. I daydream a lot. I spend hours living in the ‘in between’, where I still exist but there is so much more.

People say to stop and smell the roses, well I stop and smell, then I create a whole new reality out of that moment. Maybe there are fairies living in that flower… Maybe the flowers are having discussions with each other over the lack of rain… Maybe the flowers aren’t really a part of this dimension and they are planning their grand escape…

My world is so much more fulfilling to me and I enjoy each and ever piece. Is it really so wrong to create our own moments rather than live with the ones presented to us?

Reading of the Day – September 25, 2009

Published by Raevyn under Reading of the Day on September 25, 2009

Today I chose a card from the Druid Plant Oracle. The card chosen was Yarrow.

Keywords: Fidelity, Renewed Commitment

When I think of fidelity I tend to think about relationships, but there is another kind of fidelity that I need to take a long hard look at… my faithfulness to my commitments. I have been ‘trying’ to lose weight for over 20 years and never seem to get to my goal because I cheat. What the heck, it’s only one more piece of  bread or candy or cake or whatever is romancing me at the moment.

Watching what I eat means more than watching it go into my mouth and land on my thighs. I need to find that place of true fidelity with my body and my goals.

Here is to renewed commitment!

Reading of the Day – September 24, 2009

Published by Raevyn under Reading of the Day on September 24, 2009

Today I chose a card from the Tarot of the Spirit. The card chosen was Brother Earth.

Keywords: Accomplishment through meditation

Again I am struggling with my weight and feeling very frustrated with the lack of movement in the numbers. I am exercising like crazy, but I still find myself having issues with food.

Today’s card speaks to carefully adapting my environment, working with nature. It reminds me that I am experiencing equilibrium issues – I have had this problem most of my life and I can’t expect it to be fixed over night. I need to realize that there isn’t a need to struggle through this, I can slow down, go with the flow and allow my body to make the changes it needs to make to let go of the weight.